~Endless Pain~
Created by Sakura
Author's Note:
Also hier hab ich mich mal in Englisch versucht. Ich dachte, dass es besser klingt. ^^; Es geht hier um Yoshiki und seinen Schmerz, den er durch hide-chan's Tod erleidet . . . POOR YO-CHAN!
It's raining outside, i love rain.
It's so sweet, tears from heaven,
To wash out your pain, your scars.
But rain can't help me now, and never from now on.
Cause it's raining already inside my heart.
An endless rain that started the day you left me.
Even if this rain can't help me looks so beautiful,
Like a balsam to my painfull soul.
Absually i used to hate rain,
'till you show me all his beauty and sense.
Now maybe i should go for a walk.
~In the street~
Such a nice feeling the rain falling on my body,
Wetting my hair.
But i'm the only guy in the street with such a huge storm.
So this rain is for me.
It's not like i'm useless since you went away.
Life has been good with me . . .
Lie, All the success in my life it was thanks to my own effort.
But isn't hard at all, cause i really love what i do.
"I'm really happy for you"
That voice behind me...How could he heard what i thought?
I thought, didn't said it loud.
How can somebody be here with this rain?
Maybe i shouldn't come to this park.
The wind's so strong, i love his sound.
The trees are shaking hardly.
Oh!! I must turn around, slow, really slow.
"Absually i'm really proud of you"
Those eyes, How can this be possible??
I'm dreaming, yeah!!that's why everything looks so perfect
The wind, rain, the lonely park,
And now him, That beautiful face.
"It's not a dream Yo-chan, But you can think that if it's easy for you"
"Hide. . ."
"Don't be shy, you were calling me for 3 years, crying, screaming my name, and now i'm here, and you can't say anything?"
"I . . ."
"It was so painfull. How could you? If i knew that you were going to be this hurt i wouldn't ever killed myself that morning.
You can't imagen how it is, see you everynight crying to sleep, it hurts so much, i kissed you touched you, But you couldn't feel me"
No!! He's crying, i don't want him to cry, it doesn't matter if it's just a dream, i want him to smile, like he used to when we were together.
"Please, Don't cry, i cannot see you cry, it makes me feel so sad, i want you to smile. You know? Since you left me, everytime i close my eyes i see your sweet and beautiful smile"
"Yo-chan . . . i'm so sorry. It's all my fault and now there is no turn back, you don't know how much i missed you, how i dreamed about your kisses everysecond, You're the only reason that i have to regret what i've done"
He's so beautiful, i can't believe he's here with me in this dream it seems so real.
I missed him so much.
His skin feels so soft, so real.
And his lips taste like always.
How much i missed this smell this taste.
"You seem so real, your hair, lips, everything. Your touch, i remember everytime you touched me i felt in heaven, you made me see all the stars of the sky everytime you kissed me"
"I needed you so much all this years, to feel you like this close to me."
"Hide, i don't want to ask you, but i must . . .
"It's ok, I don't know, there wasn't a reason, absually i was very happy, can you understand me?? I just felt like if it was the right thing to do.
I was really selfish, i didn't think in all the pain that i could cause.
I didn't think in all the pain that i was going to go through.
I thought maybe it's better, maybe death is really cool, maybe there is a heaven, and we' re wasting our time here in earth."
"Wasting . . ."
"Please don't get me wrong, i was totally drunk, that had 50% of the fault, i would never ever done it if it wasn't for that, Is just that in that moment the idea looked wonderfull and it seemed everything perfect."
"you can't imagen . . ."
"I don't have to, i feel all your hurt, i know how many pain i've caused, Now i know that i was an idiot"
"No, you aren't. You're right, and even if you weren't it's you life, i understand you, i've felt that way lot of times"
"But Yo-chan in something i was right, there's something after life, I can't explain it to you, But it didn't end with death."
"I know"
"Really?"
"Of corse, why do you think i'm still alive?? I know that someday, soon, we're gonna be together again"
"Yeah!! Now i'm here cause i needed to see you, No, i see you all the time, i needed to feel you, and to make you feel me, to lower your pain, and mine. And to tell you that i'm really proud of you."
"Hide . . ."
"I have to go now Yo-chan, but remember that i'm always with you, watching you, touching, kissing you, even if you can't see me or feel me"
"I love you Hide."
"I love you to Yoshiki-sama Zutto."
"Hey!!! Don't call me that way"
"Hahaha!!! That's how everybody calls you now, the great
Yoshiki-sama."
"Hate it"
"I know"
"You're the only one that calls me Yo-chan."
"And i'm gonna call you like that always. Oh!! I almost forgot, Take."
"This is . . ."
"This is a Dhalia from where i am now."
"Heaven?"
"I don't know if it can be called that way, i prefer to named it as Savage garden, You're gonna love it, it's full of flowers!!, everybody there called it home, But you're my Home Yo-chan."
"And you're mine Hide, i'm totally lost without you."
"Don't be. i'm always with you. Take care"
"You too"
"See you soon."
"Adieu Hide-chan"
~Yoshiki's apartment~
MMMM!!I slept a lot.
What a beautiful dream!!
The rain stopped, well it's ok.
I have to go to the studio, to check on Dir en grey,
Or they're gonna destroy it.
Now wake up you must take a shower old men.
What's this?? Flower??
Dhalia!!! So it wasn't a dream after all.
"Let's go honey i gonna put you in water.
You're so beautiful!!
Now there you are!! And miss Dhalia where do you wanna be here or in my studio?
Yeah!! I guess the studio may need a beauty like you."
~Later in the DEG's rehersal room in the studio~
"So guys, how's everything??"
"Great Yoshiki-sama, we have been working a lot lately"
"Good Shinya, you guys have the concert soon, so you must practise a lot"
"Yoshiki-san . . ."
"What's the matter Kyo?"
"What's that?"
"This is a Dhalia i gonna put it here, cause it's so beautiful, it's gonna cheer up the room,
don't you guys think?"
"Kawaii!!!!!!"
Well, they're good boys, and they're gonna be the best band soon.
I'm gonna make sure of that.
So Hide-chan, you'll have to wait 'till Dir en grey can handle by themselfs.
~Yoshiki smile and leave the Dhalia there next to the window, then he went to help the guys with the sound of their new song~
"Ah!!Yo-chan, i gonna wait for you, don't worry, i could wait forever."
The End
