Sorry....
Nyo's poem....
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Wake me up inside, -I could'nt wake up all alone...
Call my name and save me from the dark -and save me from the nothing I've become....
So numb I already am...
Emptyness is flooding me, flowing through my veins,
Hope is gone I don't know when..or why....
loosing all and swing and sway,
falling into all the things-
I don't know how to say...
Feeling like I never found you-
though loosing you this time-
the fear of all the bright and white,
when righteous darkness heals me...
Sometimes I also want to fall-
fall right off the ground-
leaving everything behind me,
I always lost, and never really found...
When I look around there's no one there to catch me...
I'm walking on a slender string...
And I know I'm gonna fall-
and see you just apearing there...
..but right behind the wall I built-
all the time before...
..and just because I thought you know me
my confidence now break...
I'm splitting when I hit the ground-
....
This point I reached right now!...
I don't wanna loose this time again,
something that was this importend for me-
but I haven't the straight to walk on this time
just not the Power to fight
...not again....
..not this much...
and not for another reason...
I want you to stay, but I can't say, if there's a possibility for me to climb up again-
..and find you again-
when the time comes that I fall...
Isn't long time anymore- until I lose my balance...
on my slender string....
When I look around-
there are loud voices-
they whisper and scream at me...
I can't hold them back
they say I should go to you-
but I'm sure not to find the right way to your door...
When I think of holding you
there are tears falling down my cheeks...
..I want to say...this time!
..actually this time...
I got my good old stuffed bear-
And he's embracing me...
that's what's holding me, through all this diffrent times...
Do you know..?
..I still want to hold you-
once, but all this nonsense words
Could I have sayd with just this little gesture
Maybe this is what what you also wish-
I just could not say...
It feels like I don't know you-
..or just a tiny part of you...
J'ai sentiment d'une bise d'un ange
au ce moment special...
..but I can't understand you right...
I hear your words..
but the meaning of them can't go through my wall
and cannot reach my heart and head.
You say - you want to tell me, what your problem is-
But that's not what I want to hear-
Tell me all your Nightmares and Fears-
I want to defeat the Black-Man in your wardrobe
I can't tell you when all this Shit began to happen....
I just can tell you-
my cat died on thursday last week-
and I hadn't cried like this-
I've got the feeling that she still a bit is here
and is watching over me....
And now I fear
that someone already dead, can be closer to me than you..
If this really happen-
It will be a really seriously hurt that the time cannot erase this easy....
ARE YOU ABLE TO PACIFY AND TELL ME-
...That you still be here?..
near to me?..
You were there...I know...
I want this to be the thruth-
I learned it by heart..
but the more I wanted to keep touch on you the more you went away...
Come back- but don't continue like this!
please...
otherwise, something you just relived
will have to die again...
and then I will have to watch the ground breaking away under me...
And I know...
this is not one of the Stories in which some Angels would come to prevent my certainly impact.
And then I will breake and splitt when I hit the ground...
......
Now...Silence hanging over me, while I write this Song...
a little Poem for your Heart-
J'éspère que la te plaît....
my tears already dried up-
I wish yours also...but I certainly can't see....
Can you imagine some angel's kisses-
send -not from up above-
send by me to give to you..something you former owned..
- a little piece of my Heart...
it's whispering into your ear
"..still >..daisuki da yo!<..."
I don't know your greatest wish-
not your fears- or what you miss
-but if this Angel comes to you,
it brings alexiel's kiss...
I don't know how to go on now-
don't think, that you do though
..but I'm still there -..anywhere....somewhere-
and if you find me, I can tell you
"I don't know if I little love you,
but still >daisuki da yo<...."
